The love he found.

of my 3 dear brothers, i’ve spent the most time with Anton (Tony). we used to fight as kids. all the time. but, just before he left for college and i was starting high school, he and i formed a bond. seemingly, all of a sudden. we got along. we composed songs. he played guitar, i sang. the lyrics were fraught with teenage angst-y metaphors like being locked in a tower. and someone threw away the key. (deep stuff) he never judged.

over the past 10 years, tony and i have lived together 3 times. we lived together for a few years recently, until he moved out early this year. and moved in with the love of his life: Sarah.

i’ll miss his infectious laughter. his frustrating logic and solution-oriented responses when all i want to do is vent. i’ll miss lobbing back-and-forth the made-up words and strange sounds we’ve acquired over the years.

i’ve been hoping for Tony to find his partner. and i’ve often wondered what she would be like. i wanted her to be fun, kind, intelligent, caring, social, a traveler, and family-oriented. Sarah is all of those things. all of those things and more. she’s a beautiful person. she has become one of my best friends. and now. she’s my sister. she’s the love that Tony found. she’s the love he married on July 13th, 2013.

i have never seen him happier.

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Photos by Molly Landreth.

I think, rain.

I wrote this around the time that I started playing piano again. It’s the first and only instrumental song I’ve written and recorded to date. I use to feel that I had to have lyrics when writing songs. I clung to words as the skeletal element; the scaffolding. At some point music-making morphed into a more fluid process. Words fell away. My instruments wanted to sing. And I wanted to listen.

Song written, performed, and recorded by o.dawn.i Thursday, February 23rd, 2012.
Photo made by o.dawn.i Tuesday, April 27th, 2010.